I was originally going to title this post. “Craving Adventure” but thought better of it. For one, I already have a post with ‘craving’ in the title (can’t go repeating myself, can I?) and secondly, it would be a bit misleading as *spoiler alert*, I’m not craving adventure, it’s life I really yearn for! And I would be willing to bet a few gold dabloons (is that really what they’re called? I only have the pre-schooler show ‘Jake and the neverland pirates as a reference!) on one thing; everyone, at some point or another, has wished for something other than their daily life. Whether it be a daring adventure, a chance to run away from responsibilities or to just be ‘free’ for a time. Everyone has wished it. If not, I’ll pay the gold dabloons once I finally find a pirates treasure chest full of gold. Arrrgh.
Now, where was I? Summin’ about gold, bets and life. For the last year I have lived in the same place, for some of you that might not sound like a lot but for me it is a BIG deal. I’ve lived in london now for one month shy of two years (holy sugar shoots!) and in my first year here, I managed to move house six times. Yup. Six. And only one of those times were because of negative reasons that we don’t need to get into right now. But seriously, I moved a lot because I loved, still love, exploring. I wanted to experience as much as I possibly could, especially since I wasn’t sure how long I was going to be in london for. When I first moved here my family and friends asked how long I was going for and the only answer I could honestly give them was “anything between two weeks and the rest of my life!” I packed a weekend bag and headed to london knowing that for the next few nights until I found my feet that I would be sleeping on my friends couch. That was two years ago! After a year of flitting between flats, warehouses, houses and more, I finally found a place that left my heart aching whenever I thought of leaving. And so a year has passed. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not ready to leave my current home yet but I’m beginning to get that itch for something… something new. I’ve settled myself into a bit of a routine, which although is good, always leaves me yearning for spontaneity once again. I work two jobs, blog and study. My days are busy but I’m also lucky enough to be able to take charge of my own schedule, meaning I don’t have to leave my house everyday if I don’t want to. Win! My mental health seriously appreciates that aspect of my life for sure. I’ve had way too many days in bed recently and I’m so lucky to have been able to even do that without the worry of missing work or classes too much.
Leading on from this though is the aforementioned ‘itch’. I find myself day dreaming about flights, imagining all the different places I could visit and instagram. I found myself missing the excitement that freedom affords. I used to live my life not knowing what city I would end up in tomorrow, I would follow my heart (or my stomach.. hello, waffles in Belgium!). But with this freedom comes a lot of insecurity which I realise is not good for my mental health at all, so as much as I loved living my life with no connections and the world at my fingertips, it’s not something I could do for the rest of my life. However, once a certain amount of time passes, normality sets in and I begin searching for something new to keep my brain occupied with excitement and desire. Only this time, after some deep thought I realise that although I want to explore and spread my wings, I do not want to just pack up and leave like I have been known to before. I want to live an exciting, enjoyable life full of instagramable moments and memories. I want to meet as many people as I possibly can and make my mark all over the world, but for now, I want to make the most of this beautiful city that I have the pleasure of living in.
While studying and writing today in the coffee shop I was lucky enough to connect with a local business owner, she’s currently in the process of launching her product in local stores (I will hopefully write a piece about her soon!) and it made me realise that although I’m craving or yearning for something new, that ‘something’ doesn’t have to be in a different country thousands of miles away. It can be right here on my doorstep!
Exciting things can happen right here right now, it’s only a matter of me reaching out and connecting with the people around me. There are so many creative souls within reach and it’s never been easier for me to just say hi. I can email, text, tweet and chat in coffee shops as a way of finding new opportunities! This revelation has seemed to scratch the all too familiar itch for a while and left my wallet much happier as it doesn’t have to find money for flights to Fiji (although, Fiji is definitely going to happen…one day hehe).
There is no need for me to run away in search of whatever adventure my brain has decided I need to be happy because I have all the adventure I need right here. I’m not really sure what this post was supposed to be about but I needed to get these words out, hopefully there is someone else out there who is just as flighty as me. If that’s you, I want you to know that you’re not alone in your desire to explore, but until you’re able to step foot across the globe, you should know that there is so much adventure right there right in front of you.
Today I made new connections, met new people, shared ideas with creative individuals and already have new projects coming my way. Who knows where these new endeavours will take me. I think that is what all these years of upping and leaving when I feel the urge has taught me; if I keep running, i’ll never be anywhere long enough live the greatest adventure yet, life.
Bring on tomorrow! And whatever happens next.